July 24th, 2025

I got a gym membership...

I've been feeling really gross here lately. The roaches in my room won't go away, I guess it wasn't the cinnamon after all. I ended up getting a membership for a nearby gym so I just shower there now, plus I can work out too! It's been so long since I actually exercised I need to rebuild all my endurance..

It'll be good for my back pain though

It always feels like I'll have weeks of nothing going on, then suddenly I have a lot to do at once. I need to get another copy of my benefits verification and turn it into the main office to show I still qualify for the cheap housing. You'd think since I only got here a couple months ago we would skip this year, but no. I need to go get a piece of paper saying that nothing has changed with my benefits. Gonna be running all over and waiting in many long lines for this... Plus I still need to find and schedule an appointment with a notary to get some papers signed. I need to file for domestic partnership for my partner to move in with me.

I've been putting off getting my medicine, too

I've been getting kinda negligent with my medicine. It's really hard to remember to take it. Usually I have a few things on my mind that just make remember things like that really hard. Like, I get so focused on the roach problem or whatever else is right in front of me that I completely forget I even take meds. I can't wait for my mental evaluation so I can get some ADHD meds. One time someone told me psychiatrists won't prescribe ADHD medicine if you dissociate but this person also said that psychiatrists are evil and only here to stop schizophrenics from speaking their truth so I'm not so sure it's true. I mean I should probably tell them I dissociate pretty heavily right?

The library lets you borrow CD's here

There's not much of a selection though. I haven't even heard of most of the bands they have. They did have a couple Weezer albums though. I picked up SZNZ: Autumn and Ok Human, both were pretty good but I really think Ok Human was as good as their first few albums. The Black Album had some good songs too...

But I am still disappointed by the lack of a Ska section...

So, my girlfriend has recently been looking at jobs in here field in California. She found a job with Americorps that pays $2,500 a month and may have openings in South Lake Tahoe, applications are currently closed but I really hope she gets that job when they start taking resumes. I need to get away from this city. And Tahoe feels like home to me, I was pretty hurt and anti social when I got there, but when I was in that little town in the mountains surrounded by great people, it completely changed me. I had spent my life surrounded by bad people doing horrible things, I used to daydream about stealing a sailboat and just fleeing. I never imagined what it would be like in ports or exploring foreign countries, I wanted to keep that to a minimum. I just wanted the isolation that came with how long it took to get anywhere... Now my heart longs for the mountains. I want a life in the forest, in a small village, surrounded by all the amazing people I've met...